Thanks for the feedback on my last post. It is always nice to know that I am not the only one who just scurries out to avoid a meal/drink/happy hour event even when in recovery. I think the whole social thing is one that doesn't seem to be as discussed with eating disorders. But EDs are very isolating, so I think talking about our social anxieties is very important in recovery.
So everyone is wondering how did the run and brunch go? Well, run went well. I talked with a girl towards the end of our route. However, afterwards, many ducked out and left. I think part of this was because the e-mail that went out the night before, failed to mention the brunch, despite the organizer talking about it last weekend and on Wednesday. I stayed an additional 1 1/2 hours, chatting and waiting for the second group to come back. Realizing that no one else was staying, I left too.
Part of me thought, yeah, I did not have to worry about the challenge of eating essentially two breakfasts in a short period of time, but another part of me had already geared myself up for the experience. Oh well, until next time, right? One fun aspect was getting to know some of the other people, like their name, though apparently one guy does not tell many people his real name. The girl running with me asked someone else, and told her what it was. Thus, blowing the guy's cover. I haven't figured that one out yet, but he seems like a cool guy nonetheless, camos and all. (yes, he runs in camouflage pants; apparently last year he ran a marathon in combat boots and used to have duct taped running shoes until they convinced him to buy a real pair of running shoes)
On another note, many of them talked about the happy hour on Wednesday. Apparently, there were 11-12 of them, and they had a good time. It sucks my anxiety caused me to miss out on it, but no use in beating myself up over it. It's still relatively early in the year, and there will be other opportunities. Now, it's just me sticking to it and not backing out. It's easy to say afterwards that I will not back out and do this event, etc., but when push comes to shove, and you are in that moment, it can become a lot easier to make up an excuse, sad to say. Keep me on my toes, my friends. It's good accountability for us all.
How has your social anxiety hindered you? Have you found it has gotten easier in recovery? What is a social challenge you have overcome recently? Share your thoughts in the comments section.