Thursday, April 9, 2009

Deciding on spontaneity

I checked my e-mail tonight and received a message from an old friend who I recently reconnected with through facebook. Apparently, she is visiting her sister and is about an hour away from me. She wants to get together this weekend.

Normally, I'd probably say no since this is a spontaneous event. Spontaneity = change in routine, change in foods, finagling schedules, something that causes the ED to uproar and the anxiety to elevate. However, I haven't seen this person in ten years and would really like to see her. Therefore, I'm going to make a strong effort to see her. This is despite feeling and looking like crap (aka fat), having a several pimples on my face, and bloated from the wonders of womanhood.

If all pans out, I will post an update.

I should also mention this isn't the only spontaneous event as a friend is coming down with her new dog to meet me and visit the kennel. So it looks like this weekend is full of spontaneity and getting taxes done.

9 comments:

Carrie Arnold said...

It's hard to decide which is the least appealing, huh? Change or taxes...

I'm glad you're getting together with your friend. I know how hard it is, and it's so important to do things that will make you feel better even though you might not initially want to.

Gaining Back My Life said...

Hey, that's exciting!

I ate out in public last week - you can do this :)

Kim said...

Yeah, I know all about those spontaneous social events and how anxiety-evoking they can be. They really piss off the ED. But, like you, there are some people I find myself really WANTING to see. So, I push myself for those people. There are some days I'm just not up for things, and I'm trying to accept that instead of beat myself up for it. Hopefully you can enjoy the weekend :) It's just a couple days out of the norm :)

Lissy said...

i know just how you feel. you are courageous to make the plans. i hope you can hang out in the moment and enjoy yourself.

getting off my schedule makes me miserable, especially when i'm feeling "womanly"! you go girl.

Just Eat It! said...

It's great that you're getting together with your friend. I hope you have fun!

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Kara said...

You can do it! Just say yes to being spontaneous! I know it's hard, but you can do it!

Tiptoe said...

Thanks everyone for the support. I really had a fantastic time today all around. I will post more details when I'm a little more awake. I'm kind of overstimulated at the moment.

Abodyrevolution, thanks for your compliments on my blog. I will look through your project and be in touch.

Kristina said...

So glad that you challenged yourself to be spontaneous and that you enjoyed yourself. Nicely played!