A few weeks ago, I posted Measures of our worth, discussing unhealthy things we hold onto--the things we know we should let go of but don't necessarily until we finally realize how detrimental that item is, whether it is behaviorally or emotionally or both.
Many of us have old clothing items we have held onto for a long time, even during recovery. Whether it is out of security, a longing for, or a symbolism of the past, truly, it just is not helpful to us in the end.
Earlier this week, I decided to get rid of this pair of jeans. A local rescue group is having a yard sale this weekend, so I thought I would put this in my donation box. I was actually going to hand this pair of jeans plus several other items over to an upscale consignment shop, but I just never got around to it.
This pair of jeans got some usage, mostly in my twenties, but hasn't been worn in several years to be honest. Besides that I'm no longer starving myself, I think it's also the fact that I decided I wanted to wear things that actually fit me better-not only waist wise but also length wise. This pair of jeans has an inseam of 30". On someone who is only about 5'1, it was way too long. When I originally bought this off of ebay, I was stoked, because I found a pair of Abercrombie & Fitch men's slouch jeans. (I had another pair my mom had found for me years before which I loved)
I think I kept this pair of jeans hanging in my closet for the sole purpose of wishing-knowing that there was always the option to go back. And I needed to hold onto that for a long time until I felt strong enough to know there was the least bit likelihood that I would revert back.
So this is now farewell, good riddance to this piece of clothing. Though there isn't quite as much anguish as I thought there would be, it is still removing a part of your life-a symbolism of sorts. I just hope now that whoever buys them does it for the right fit and not a yearning to be something they are not.
In case you didn't see these other creative posts by some fantastic bloggers, check them out:
Sarah used her jeans as an art project.
Katie, for her 100th post, took more drastic measures and watched her jeans melt and crumble.
p.s.-yes, this photo was staged-see the symbolism?