Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Relative update

Just a quick update from my last post, then I'm headed to bed after a long day. My aunt and uncle did visit on Sunday. Other than looking slightly less gaunt from the last time I saw her, my aunt looked pretty much the same as I had remembered her. It was kind of sad, but at the same time, there was one noticeable difference--she was happier looking. I know a lot of this is from getting out of the school system and doing more what she wants. I know she is really enjoying her therapy dog work, agility, and rally, as well as her volunteering jobs. Plus, she travels quite a bit too.

It makes me wonder at times if I am wrong. Maybe she really is that thin? Maybe my perception is too clouded from the ED? Even if she is thin, perfectionistic, rigid, and a private person, that doesn't necessarily label her with an ED. Still though, it makes me wonder.

In any case, the visit was brief and nice, consisting of a tour of the house, meeting the dogs, and visiting my workplace. Then, they were off to go home. We'll see if this leads to a renewed interest in relationship.


Mango said...

Just found your blog and wanted to put in my quick two cents while I'm here.

Since starting recovery, I have started to "see" eating disorders everywhere. If anyone is thin, wearing a sweater, has thin hair, or doesn't eat something, I start to wonder. (It doesn't help that our society is really full of disordered eaters!) It upsets me because I would have thought I would a) be less judgmental/assuming now that I know EDs comes with many different faces and b) less obsessed with others' eating habits, now that I'm getting better. Maybe I'm desperate to find others like me (even though I read many recovery blogs and know several girls recovering). Maybe I miss restriction, so I see it everywhere. Who knows. I really do wonder how many of my guesses are right, though.

Anyway, that was more than 2 cents. I wanted to say I totally understand where you're coming from, and I've had similar questions. I'm glad the visit went well, and I hope you got a good night's sleep after the long day!

Tiptoe said...

Mango, thanks so much for your thoughts. I agree that when you have/had an ED, it is really easy to "see" ED everywhere as you say. I think there will always be a part of this where we may be more speculative of people. But I hope as we can move further into recovery, it won't be so much of a focus as it has been. Sometimes, I don't know though.

Hang in there with your recovery.

I Hate to Weight said...

i wonder about people in my family too. everyone is very involved in "thin". when does that stop being healthy? how do you define an eating disorder, really? what is "naturally thin"?

i'm glad it was a nice visit.